Wow, I just realized that it’s been two weeks since I last posted a personal blog entry! Over at my work blog, I’ve been more productive. Why the silence? ‘Cuz I’ve been suffering an identity crisis, that’s probably the best way to describe it.

Here’s the thing: since I graduated from college, way back in 1981, I have worked for exactly one place! In today’s world of revolving jobs, that is some sort of record. Over the years I have held a variety of positions for said employer – I even went to graduate school while working here (and they also endured my brief flirtation with law school). Along the way they were very flexible with my schedule, I got lots of vacation (it’s a private university), got a fairly blechy salary but was never asked to work toooo hard. I also met and worked with some great folks, people I’m happy to say are still good friends. Sounds pretty great, huh? Well, as I wrote in a previous entry, all good things must come to an end. Over the past three years I have reported to something like six different people. Sometimes it’s been so confusing, I actually didn’t KNOW who I reported to. I had hoped that switching to 60% might make it all more endurable, but if anything, it’s made it worse. And now that I am poised to really and truly LEAVE, it’s even worse. Yes, I’m suffering from short-timer fever! Optimist that I am, I have resigned myself to my departure not working out which is making me feel even worse.

Chuck is the soul of patience and understanding, but that just irritates me more, as it looks to my distorted view of the world right now as nothing short of condescension. If all of this is making you think you don’t want to be around me at the moment, hey, I’m with you! I don’t want to be around me.

*sigh*

The good news: I should know about my future one way or anoher in a week or so. In the meantime, I’m going to go gnaw some wood or kick some walls.